Keep trying.

“It was the year you learned that shooting stars were either a blessing or a curse, depending on what you wanted to believe.”

Lang Leave

Plenty of things running through my mind, which literally exhausted me, mentally. I’ve tried to knock it off but to no avail. Upcoming things are about to appear and crawl, I hate it.

“Are you ready?”, one question with a thousand answers, and… excuses. Bluntly saying, I can’t be able to keep myself from feeling that I’m such a burden to everyone, even to myself. And no matter how hard I try, I still couldn’t seem to pick myself up off the floor.

Today ain’t the only day I feel so not in my skin, I am spilling out and over, hard. Looking in the mirror, seeing myself like a baby bird trying to fly, again… it is hard.

Everything I desire lies on the other side of facing my demons, waiting and grinning in the shadows. Believe, success is a lonely road and is never a perfect one. What keeps me going, knowing today, might be an easy kill. But things aren’t static, and tomorrow could be different.


F.R

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Plain and Simple.

Hi Sweetheart,

Imma tell you this everyday. You are the most beautiful person I know, inside and out. With you, I see that more clearly each passing day. Aww Sugar! I love everything about you, about “us”.

Love, you do something to me that no other has, you have made me so happy, the happiest I’ve ever been. You give me the most amazing feelings inside and it’s been exciting and just pure bliss.

I’ve never met someone that was so good for me, and made me want them to this extent. Now that we’re together my smile never fades anymore, you’ve got me enthused about life, love, contentment and the little things to offer.

Before I met you, I was so concentrated and fixiated on the negitive, because it was everywhere, it was all I saw, and went through. You walked into my life and tore my walls down, and ever since, there’s been so much good walking into my life and for that, I thank you, hehe.

You took the time to figure me out and I believe that ain’t easy, and so for that.. I sincerely apologize haha.

You’re a remarkable person, darling.

I still don’t know what I did to be so lucky to have you in my life, my dream just came true… I am so thankful after all. In this short time that we’ve been together, we have grown so much and I can’t wait to see what the future holds for us.

I love you, baby 💛


F.R

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Here & Now.

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Life is pretty good. Regardless the mornings, evenings and nights are indeed super-tough and nothing can mentally prepare you for that difficult season since my final semester is approaching. I couldn’t be happier to realise that I’ve survived for 3 years and a half living in Terengganu (which I’ve never been happy about that, whateverrrr)

Gosh I’ve missed writing my blog sooo much. Been so busy with stuff lately until I had no time at all to update new posts. It’s now 2018, and I’m so glad to say that 2017 was my happy year. I felt like I had it all figured out. I was almost right. I was starting to learn how I could be happier but it doesn’t apply to everyone. I am not happy all the time but I am very happy most of the time and that counts. I have succeeded in happiness. I am so, so happy. I have absolutely everything I could have wished for, and more. Love, family, pet, home, enough of everything. Life happened.

In the last year I really focused on finding out who I want to be and what I want to become. I started with dreams like: I want to open my own firm, I want to have my own cafe, I want to be a lawyer (this one was quite a change), or perhaps a newsreader. But I know for sure I’ll become a lawyer… That is not even everything but you know, I felt like I had to choose one thing and that would be it for the rest of my life. I realised I could do anything I want and then it was like being 15 all over again. Life is tough, especially my uni life, it is tough. So many options which I couldn’t be able to decide by my own. But indeed, I have realised that no matter what I start doing-it will lead me to the right path.

Yet, also in the last year, I found the happy side of me and the blunt side of life.

Many things can change in a few short months. Love happens when you least expect it. It’s definitely becoming a truth universally acknowledged that the best relationships do in fact begin unexpectedly, when you get that overwhelming feeling and everything happens so quickly, but at the same time everything feels so right. For want of a better word, expect the unexpected.

It really is amazing when someone comes into your life and you expect absolutely nothing out of it, but suddenly, right there in front of you, is everything you ever need. I suppose sometimes, you meet a person and you just click, you’re comfortable with them, like you’ve known them your whole life and you don’t have to pretend to be anyone or anything, you’re just you, because that’s how it should be.

Love has always seemed like a very complex process to me. Even as a woman who’s heavily involved (and interested might I add) in the dating industry, it seems that the majority of folk describe a whole manner of things that contribute to falling in love.

Love isn’t logical, it’s emotional. You don’t use your head when you fall in love, you use your heart.

You don’t choose to fall in love, it just happens, that’s why you “fall”. It catches you completely off guard and you find yourself feeling shocked, surprised but at the same time, stupidly happy.

What I’m trying to say, as always very inarticulately, is that you shouldn’t set out to find love, let love find you. I guess that’s why you shouldn’t really LOOK for love, it comes to you just at the right time, the time you never thought it would have…


F.R

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Still alive.

“Once you learn to care, you can record images with your mind or on film. There is no difference between the two.”

Jarum jam terus bergerak,
Berputar mengikut waktu dan masa,
Tidak sekali terhenti jika bukan kerna baterinya yang rosak.

Berjalan, berlari masih perlu aku patuh,
Nafas diberi oleh-Nya hendaklah aku gunakan sebaiknya,
Mahupun nadiku betah dengan cara hidup fizikal ini.

Sadar di fikiranku hidup itu rumit,
Terikat tidak lekang dengan cara hidup generasi Y,
Kadangnya baik dan selalunya buruk,
Apakan daya itulah adat, walau tidak mandatori.

Kesempurnaan itu yang dikejarkan,
Walau pengakhiran kepuasannya hanya celik di mata,
Kagak di hati mahupun di akal si pelakunya.

Menjalani hidup ini dengan ikhlas,
Kemudian bahagia kelak harapnya,
Aku tahu,
Usah tunggu sempurnanya hidup untuk bahagia,
Kerana bahagia adalah pilihan hidup.

Pilihan dan keputusan kekal di tangan tuan badan,
Hidup tidak bahagia atau bahagia dalam seribu duka yang ada,
Seperti segala yang dimilikinya,
Seribu duka pun hanyalah titipan,
Yang bakal diambil jua kembali oleh Tuhan.


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Awakening.

The more you wake up, the more you realize everything that’s happening is a sign. Books open at the right place when you’re beginning to become awake. You can be saved by messages you read in the sign of the road. You can be illumined by somebody sitting next to you in a bus and humming a folk song that goes straight to the core of your problem, because the whole world is divine and these signs are flashing out everywhere. That is the key to awakening.

Andrew Harvey

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Embrace change.

Hey beautiful peeps, sorry for my absence but I’ve been busy with stuff. Anyway, it’s already August and soon yet another year has passed in a rapid speed and I feel as I get older so fast and I still have plenty of things I wanna do in my life. Do you get that feeling too? That life is too short for all those projects and dreams and wishes you have?

It’s true that time runs too fast and sometimes too slow as well. Though, it’s also true that a lot can happen in a year, good nor bad. People always say the best kind of relationships begin unexpectedly. When you get that astonished feeling and everything happens so suddenly. That’s why you don’t look for love, yet it comes to you just… at the right time. The time you never thought it would have. This doesn’t always relate to couples but as well as to other relationships.

Nevertheless, you also can’t change or have no power to change what has already happened. I believe and understand that people change and sometimes they’re no longer compatible with our lives. The rational thing to do is to accept it and move on. Because you know, you can’t change someone who doesn’t see an issue in their actions.

After all, on this road called life, you have take the good with the bad, smile with the sad. Love what you got and remember what you had. Always forgive but never forget, learn from your mistakes. People change when they’ve had enough, things go wrong. But, just remember the ride goes on.


F.R

 

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Unconditional Love.

I was taken by surprise that I’ve never expected myself to yearn for your presence in my life

It’s too short in period of time as I found myself couldn’t stand still waiting for some replies from you

As now I believed and realized that warmth feelings can happen in the blink of an eye

And know that, it ain’t about others, because it is indeed, about you, the real you that has managed to gain my trust, and earn my respect.

It’s true when people say that love is developed, because by having you in my life was like having so much happiness in my two hands, belitting my hands.

The happiness that you brought into my life is a happiness no one could describe in any manner. No possibility at all.

I am grateful to have you in my existence, not only did you save me from drowning myself into a sadness that might have taken my life but you brightened the darkest parts of my soul that none other could desire to think of even doing it.

The vibe is different, the best writing is certainly when you are in love.


F.R

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