Life is pretty good. Regardless the mornings, evenings and nights are indeed super-tough and nothing can mentally prepare you for that difficult season since my final semester is approaching. I couldn’t be happier to realise that I’ve survived for 3 years and a half living in Terengganu (which I’ve never been happy about that, whateverrrr)
Gosh I’ve missed writing my blog sooo much. Been so busy with stuff lately until I had no time at all to update new posts. It’s now 2018, and I’m so glad to say that 2017 was my happy year. I felt like I had it all figured out. I was almost right. I was starting to learn how I could be happier but it doesn’t apply to everyone. I am not happy all the time but I am very happy most of the time and that counts. I have succeeded in happiness. I am so, so happy. I have absolutely everything I could have wished for, and more. Love, family, pet, home, enough of everything. Life happened.
In the last year I really focused on finding out who I want to be and what I want to become. I started with dreams like: I want to open my own firm, I want to have my own cafe, I want to be a lawyer (this one was quite a change), or perhaps a newsreader. But I know for sure I’ll become a lawyer… That is not even everything but you know, I felt like I had to choose one thing and that would be it for the rest of my life. I realised I could do anything I want and then it was like being 15 all over again. Life is tough, especially my uni life, it is tough. So many options which I couldn’t be able to decide by my own. But indeed, I have realised that no matter what I start doing-it will lead me to the right path.
Yet, also in the last year, I found the happy side of me and the blunt side of life.
Many things can change in a few short months. Love happens when you least expect it. It’s definitely becoming a truth universally acknowledged that the best relationships do in fact begin unexpectedly, when you get that overwhelming feeling and everything happens so quickly, but at the same time everything feels so right. For want of a better word, expect the unexpected.
It really is amazing when someone comes into your life and you expect absolutely nothing out of it, but suddenly, right there in front of you, is everything you ever need. I suppose sometimes, you meet a person and you just click, you’re comfortable with them, like you’ve known them your whole life and you don’t have to pretend to be anyone or anything, you’re just you, because that’s how it should be.
Love has always seemed like a very complex process to me. Even as a woman who’s heavily involved (and interested might I add) in the dating industry, it seems that the majority of folk describe a whole manner of things that contribute to falling in love.
Love isn’t logical, it’s emotional. You don’t use your head when you fall in love, you use your heart.
You don’t choose to fall in love, it just happens, that’s why you “fall”. It catches you completely off guard and you find yourself feeling shocked, surprised but at the same time, stupidly happy.
What I’m trying to say, as always very inarticulately, is that you shouldn’t set out to find love, let love find you. I guess that’s why you shouldn’t really LOOK for love, it comes to you just at the right time, the time you never thought it would have…